After I wrote – ranted, really – about that “intercrural gay porn” thingy, I got to thinking about the times when I experienced it first-hand and my thoughts kinda exploded in my head, thinking about what was on my mind at those times, what I was feeling, and even how things wound up happening like that.
So it happens for one of two reasons: Either you or the other guy don’t want to stick it in or shit happens and sticking it in can’t be done. Why not stick it in? Well, that’s kinda obvious when you think about what might be in there and some guys just can’t get past the revulsion even if that entrance has had a proper and thorough cleansing. It wasn’t all that unusual for a guy to tell me that he wanted to fuck me but he didn’t want to put it in me and the first time I heard that, I’ll admit to be baffled because, um, what’s the point in wanting to fuck me if you’re not going to put it in me?
What I found was that not having him inside me could feel just as good and, sometimes, even better. It’s one of those things where I have to say that if you’ve never been fucked – even intercrurally – you can’t begin to get an idea of how having another guy on top of you feels or maybe be unable to appreciate the weird sense of sensuality that can be had knowing that he’s using your body in a rather unusual way for his pleasure and, in turn, you’re being pleased as well.
I’m not trying to romanticize this in any way – just trying to put into words the things I’ve felt and thought during these moments, like having to learn to master my disappointment when a guy’s trying to get it in me and he can’t stay hard enough to at least get the head in. Back in the day, that used to frustrate the hell out of me, to be in that highly sexual moment and the anticipation of feeling him pushing himself into me and making it feel kinda painful, kinda uncomfortable, and good all at the same time… but he can’t stay hard enough.
So he winds up doing it intercrurally; really funny how and why his cock can return to its majestic hardness when he’s not trying to penetrate me, huh? Still, it’s the feeling of having his cock trapped between your thighs or feeling it sliding around between your butt cheeks, to hear the sounds of exertion coming from him as he works towards a creamy finish… and it all feels good to be under him. Personally, I think the ‘best’ way to do it like this is just to lie on your belly, let him get between those cheeks, and go for what he knows; maybe enough of his boner will come back and, as he knocks on my back door, at least the head will slip in… and maybe if that happens, more of him might follow.
But if it doesn’t, well, that’s okay and whatever frustration can be easily pushed to the side because getting done this way was better than not getting done at all.
I switch over and now I’m the one doing it and he’s already told me not to stick it in and, for me, I didn’t have any issues honoring that request. I had long since learned to control that weird sense of revulsion but, ya know, sometimes trying to get it in there is easier said than done – no amount of lube or telling him to relax is going to permit entrance into him – so you go with the next best thing and, yeah, there were times when doing it like this felt much better than actually being in there – maybe I’m just weird like that.
To feel him under you, humping back at you as if you were inside him – man, I find that I don’t really have the words to explain or describe the feeling other than it’s kinda mindless, like giving in to that instinctual thing that’s built into us to fuck and the fact that there’s another guy under me either doesn’t matter… or adds that special zing that eventually leads to a gut-wrenching explosion.
Back to being on the receiving end, I’ve experienced some rather delicious orgasms being done like this and I realized at one point that not having it in me allowed me to think about other things, oh, like how uncomfortable having him inside me may feel, having that bit of angst to realize that not enough lube was used, stuff like that. Instead, you can bask in the feeling of being fucked without all the usual stuff getting in the way of things.
I’ve had guys say they weren’t going to stick it in… and they wound up doing it anyway and, okay, you kinda told a little fib there but it’s in there now. Once, while I was being done like this, I remembered a Richard Pryor joke about him winding up in jail and telling the judge, “Don’t stick it in too far, your Honor!” and I started laughing uncontrollably. That didn’t make the other guy happy – he thought I was laughing at him – so I had to tell him what I was thinking… then he started laughing… and we actually didn’t get a chance to finish what we had started because neither of us could stop laughing.
After having all these thoughts run through my mind, I still remain uncertain whether this would make for good porn. You could show the usual cock sucking that happens before the fact (that’s always fun) and you could show one guy humping away on the other guy… but because there’s no stick up someone’s ass, eh, it would lose that visual appeal of seeing a cock burrowing its way into the other guy’s ass… and I suspect anyone watching such porn would then be inclined to eject the DVD and use it as a coaster or something because watching two guys fucking without seeing dick in ass could be as boring as watching paint dry.
But reality is a lot more satisfying than porn could try to portray this. It’s not about those gay porn models you can see on DVD and in their various forms and guises; no, it’s about two guys doing some pretty primal stuff with each other, reveling in all the sensations but without having to go that extra step and I just don’t think porn can capture this.