Feeling the need to blog, I was staring at my Dashboard and my eye caught the beginning of the comment I wrote in response to Foxfur’s comment. I chuckled, took a sip from my second cup of coffee, and thought about writing – and what another blogger said about this – and thought, “Hell, I write better shit than that thing I read last night…”
I’m not saying it’s better because I’m the one writing it; maybe it’s because I have a “better” understanding of the taboos that comprise writing in this almost lost genre. Okay, if you have a queasy disposition about such things, close your browser; if not, hang with me for a few.
The most popular taboos in writing like this is – and not in any particular order that I’m aware of – incest, homosexuality, pedophilia, heterosexuality, and bisexuality. Okay, to the shame of our species, yeah, we do this stuff for real, which is why writing about such things can be, um, stimulating because of this shame in our behavior.
When I write, one of the first things I think of is what kind of “trouble” I want to get my characters in, then think of – hopefully – creative ways to get them into and out of trouble… or even deeper in the shit. Sometimes I put in the usual “warnings” about the taboos in which they’re going to engage in, usually a line or more about how this isn’t supposed to happen… but it does. Maybe they’re straight and married and doing stuff married people ain’t supposed to do. Ah, but to put tents in pants and call for a change in panty liners, you gotta go to the forbidden of the forbidden and get brothers and sisters doing stuff, include the parent or parents, throw some homosexual sex into the mix – and then create some dilemmas along the way, like the reminder that they ain’t supposed to be doing this, the fear of getting caught, or even the total disregard for society’s rules about this.
Then it’s just a matter of thinking and writing of every way A can go into B while keeping human physiology in mind because while the sex itself is “filthy,” you also want it to be totally doable.
I try to avoid the “usual” stuff – big dicks, in particular simply because not every guy is so well-endowed. Pussies have hair… or not, clits are of varying size and women either squirt when they cum or they don’t because, for me, it’s not about writing something you expect. Guys might cum like fountains… and not so much. Sometimes it’s not about large breasts or hourglass shapes, ripped abs, all those things our society does proclaim are attractive and necessary for good, mind-blowing sex of any kind.
Nah, I try to put “regular” people into irregular situations and even take the time to show you how and why they got themselves deeply into whatever taboo prompted me to write. When I wrote and published my first story, the editors did what editors love to do and tried to normalize what I had written when I wanted it to be abnormal; they wanted to run the usual path such things take and, well, that’s not what I had in mind. We did agree to change a few things to make each other happy and, sometime later, I was presented with the published copy along with a nice check for my first real effort at depicting just how depraved people can be.
I thought about the way I write and compared it against the book I wrote and, wow, not only was it not exciting in the sense it was supposed to be despite the “popular” taboos, it was sophomoric in the writing, almost as if the author had no real idea how such things happen in the setting that was laid out. I would have done it differently, probably wouldn’t have fudged over the human factors surrounding the taboos and since I learned that readers of erotica do like a good story line, I wouldn’t have dragged out the arousal factors; the book teased more than it excited and, well, that’s no fun.
As I read the book, I realized I was re-writing it in my head, picking out the stuff I liked and would have kept and tossing out huge chunks of it simply because, in my mind, it wasn’t believable and didn’t fit the included taboos. I think a lot of the author’s perceived problem in this was using an adult mind to get kids to do something they shouldn’t be doing or, in other words, the author, while writing for the adult audience of that age, wasn’t thinking like a kid because kids don’t have that adult mindset or approach to sex; there’s nothing that gets in the way of their kid logic in this because kids are more like “if it feels good – and we’re not supposed to be doing it – let’s do it and to hell with the implications!” Only adults behave in the way these characters did and, well, I wouldn’t have done it like that.
Okay, I know these things are supposed to educate, as in teaching the reader not to do any of the shit they’re reading and while a lot of these kinds of stories tend to have happy endings, well, I like to write stuff where, in the end, no one is happy. I wrote a story called “Fatal Error” for my Internet fans… and the responses I got were amazing; a lot of people were quite unhappy that the story was dark and brooding and ended with the main character putting a bullet in his head. Sometimes when I write, I’ll do all the taboo things but the lesson is that everything one can do has consequences… and not all of them are pleasant… because in the real world, hell, yeah, they’re often unpleasant.
People get caught doing this; they go to jail, lose their whole lives in some way and, yeah, even kill themselves because of it. Is it sexually stimulating? Most of the people who read “Fatal Error” were both aroused and pissed off and, yeah, a few people wrote me and told me they were masturbating right through to the end.
If you’re gonna write this stuff and get all into the stuff our society says we shouldn’t do, it shouldn’t be all peaches and cream… because it really isn’t. Now, my very first story – and probably the best one I’ve ever written – actually left people hanging – and I did that intentionally. People were writing me and asking when I was going to write the sequel… and I knew it couldn’t be written because I did try to write it and utterly failed. They wanted to know if the family I wrote about ever got busted for what they were doing; how did they escape punishment? Did they continue to grow or did what they were into spread outward, impacting and affecting other families? Beats the hell out of me… and I wrote the damned thing.
For me, writing erotica is about stimulating mind and body; I don’t just write jerk-off stuff. One of my problems with the book I read was that I couldn’t identify with the characters – avid readers can understand this one better than I can explain it. Yeah, they were doing all the good, nasty stuff but it lacked that certain thing that puts you into the mind of the written character and that’s probably why I didn’t find it physically or mentally stimulating. Me, I want you to know that the character you’re reading about is doing something they shouldn’t be doing it, but I also want you to know why they’re doing it, what they’re thinking about when they’re doing the unspeakable right along with the joys and problems behind it.
I want you to identify with the character who’s either doing something or having it done to him or her and, yeah, they know what they’re doing is about as wrong as it gets… but also realizing that maybe this is the nature of the beast. Sometimes they regret it while they’re doing it… sometimes not. Toss in some reluctance and guilt, two powerful emotions and pit them against lust and desire while throwing conventional logic onto the floor and letting the cat shred it.
Some such books are about parents who give into the temptation and, to me, some of them resist too much or not enough and, well, it’s too corny and predictable. Yep, I will get parents having sex with their children, willing or otherwise… and while that condition can and does stimulate some folks, it’ll also disgust some folks as well – and therein lies the lesson. I often make parents in this really “think” about what’s going on and I like fucking with their heads in this; should I or shouldn’t I? Do I turn a blind eye and hope what those horny bastards are doing just goes away?
It’s too easy to make them willing participants! Real life says that, yeah, they can be, and it’s the shock factor in this that some people actually find stimulating, as odd as that might sound. I will often give them issues about what their offspring are doing but will just as often give them their own dark secrets in this as well. Is it exciting to see “adults” struggling with this? Maybe… but maybe I’m setting you up with a “will they do it, too?” kind of thing? Maybe they give in to their illicit passions and join the party… or maybe they don’t.
I could write in the style of those old books so that the people who read it can get their hands on their genitalia and do some, ah, meditating or maybe go grab their man or woman and get busy. I do warn that if you’re stupid enough to do the shit I write about, well, that’s what you get for being stupid; I’m not going to accept any responsibility in this because I write fiction. It’s a message that the old books failed to establish and that’s probably because they just assumed that everyone knew not to do this stuff… and they were wrong.
It’s fun to write this stuff. Someone wrote me once – after reading one of my stories – and said that I should be ashamed of myself for even thinking about the stuff I write about and that I needed therapy to erase such notions from my mind. I laughed and wrote them back and asked as simple question: “Why did you read this, then, if that’s the way you feel?” They declined to respond to this, which made the exchange even funnier.
I write erotica because I can; I love to write (duh) and, yeah, I like fucking with people’s sensibilities. If you read my stuff and you have this sudden urge to hit the bathroom or lock yourself in your bedroom, okay, that works; at the same time, if I make you see things that can happen and puts you on guard about such things, that works for me as well. If, say, you’re a budding bisexual and you read something I wrote about it, maybe you get to understand it better… or find out some things that’ll make you think twice about wanting to take that plunge.
Where can you find the stuff I’ve put out there? You can go to http://www.asstr.org/~Rob_Morton and read my early works – and the name part is case-sensitive. I’ve not published any of the more recent stuff I’ve written because I’m trying to figure out how to put it all into something I can once again make a few coins from… but that’s a lot of work. I’m learning about self-publishing and I have the tools to do it… except I don’t wanna pay someone else to put it out there for me, like CreateSpace or other providers like this.
I like ebooks and while it would take a bit of work for me to convert all that I’ve written into the EPUB format, I can do it and then it’s just a matter of making it all available, maybe make some money, and not get into any legal trouble because when I write, my mind is incredibly filthy and controversial because I like to write about the stuff that gives the moral majority nightmares.
Hell, I’d settle for making a deal with someone who’s buying stories and paying for the right to publish them… if I could find such a purveyor and I probably could… if I tried hard enough. I’d like to do it but until I do, it’s about the fun I have writing about such things and feeding my need to write… something.